BEN – AVAILABLE NOW https://macklemore.co/ben Connect with Macklemore: https://www.tiktok.com/@macklemore https://www.instagram.com/macklemore https://twitter.com/macklemore https://www.facebook.com/macklemore https://www.macklemore.com/   Written by: Ben Haggerty, Joshua Budo Karp, Tyler Dopss, Naz Produced by: Tyler Dopps, Naz Mixed By: Jon Castelli Mastered By: Dale Becker LYRICS: It’s like I met you at my parent’s house when I was 14 Seen you my whole life but never got to me You’d always post in the kitchen, I knew the shelf you lived in Above where the fridge is, but we never kicked it Finally I decided to pull you down Had Pac in the background, pulled the shot glasses out Grabbed you by your neck even though we just met Held you close, felt the fire burn my throat Warmth like the Holy Ghost I remember thinking, “is this real life?” I had two and wondered what four more would feel like Predisposed to having an obsession Codependent before we even had a friendship Had a dozen of you, already loved you, I couldn’t stop Got on the metro stumbling to 3rd and Pine block Hit the Micky D’s, puked all over the restaurant Our first date was already running from the cops I ride with you, lie for you My tried and true, love I never knew It kills me to think of a life without you But sometimes I wonder if you want me to die too In highschool our relationship was abusive Addicted to being together, couldn’t control my usage We pass out together on a stranger’s lawn Woke up in a random car too gone to make it to my own prom But I had to have you even though we’d pass out in bathrooms Take a month off to show myself I know myself, don’t need no help Forget the pain, pouring rain Brown bag full of guilt and shame Mistress controlling my head Getting arrested, not remembering anything that I said And I knew then that I should’ve left And I could see if I didn’t leave You’d lead me to death but I ride with you, lie for you My tried and true, love I never knew It kills me to think of a life without you But sometimes I wonder if you want me to die too Bitch, you killed my uncle, you’re fucking trouble Socially acceptable and oh, so subtle You ruined my life and I fucking loved you Promised relief and left me with a rusty shovel and some busted rubble Pieces of my life that you destroyed was once freedom and joy Was now depression, being unemployed And I knew I had to change it and face it And checked into rehab And 28 days later I remembered who I really was I remembered where I’m really from I remembered the beauty of the present moment That you only get when you connect to the Creator And the breath inside the chest that fully fills your lungs I found the people with the same allergy And what I thought was love was really just my disease I always thought the problem was you and couldn’t believe When I learned that the whole time my issue was me I ride with you, lie for you My tried and true, love I never knew It kills me to think of a life without you But sometimes I wonder if you want me to die too I ride with you, lie for you My tried and true, love I never knew It kills me to think of a life without you But sometimes I wonder if you want me to die too