It All Goes Down: Pain Ali lives with his parents, who he can never seem to get along with. He'll be alright, all he has to do is run. I remastered my first song!!! When I was making this for the first time, I wasn't trying to make a good song, I was trying to vent, so it may not be the best you've heard from me. ------------- Lyrics: I’m trying to keep myself together I can not do this for much longer Nothing I do will make me want to stay alive It’s pulling all the wires I’ve wired My head’s been aching, and I’m tired As I go down this route, I soon begin to strive I got no one to turn to, and now I’m breaking in two Hopelessness is all that I’ve got, leaving me inside here to rot He said that he wasn’t mad, but he was I could see it in his eyes, and he was I’m stuck, trapped in this cave I just need to behave Well deserved scolding, right? Father puts up quite a fight My emotions in his sight Now I guess that that’s not right Buried in these thoughts of mine over and over again So now, I shall make my way down the rabbit hole again Does someone with a soul like mine even deserve to live? To all the ones around me It’s my effort I have to give Crying more than I want to. that shows I’m breaking in two All these thoughts are all that I’ve got why don’t they all leave me to rot? Screaming helped me out, and I so there I was I was hoping for any pain there was And so, to myself I say, “This will all end one day” I deserve scolding, right? Mother puts up quite a fight I put the truth in her sight But she thought that they were lies Buried in these thoughts of mine over and over again So now, I shall make my way down the rabbit hole again Tell me, what if I threw this life away? Tell me, what if I slit the pain away? Tell me, what if I could make this all end? Tell me, what if I was what you would like? Someone tell me why I can’t help but cry Someone tell me why, someone tell me why! Someone tell me why i’m so terrified Someone tell me why "There’s no reason why!" Nothing I think feels right! Black and white are in my eyes! Are they good, or are they bad? Am I allowed to be sad? Sitting alone in the night, of course that’s the case again So now I shall make my way down the rabbit hole once more What am I doing wrong? What have they been all along? Can I fix this mind of mine? or will they say not to whine? Buried in my memories, why is this the case again? All of them will guide my way down the rabbit hole again! ---------- Support me on Kofi!!! https://ko-fi.com/saturncandies ——— My carrd - https://thesaturncandies.carrd.co/ ——— My socials: - Twitter/X - https://twitter.com/SaturnCandiesDeviantart - https://www.deviantart.com/saturn-candies Tumblr - https://www.tumblr.com/saturn-candies Instagram - https://www.instagram.com/saturncandies/ Do not repost my songs without my permission