Autumn Variations Fan Living Room Sessions: 14 exclusive, intimate performances of each track from the album performed, and filmed, in fans’ houses. Watch all 14 performances now. Autumn Variations, the new album, out now. Listen / Buy: http://es.lnk.to/AutumnVariations Autumn Variations (Living Room Sessions) out now: https://es.lnk.to/LivingRoomSessions Subscribe to Ed's channel: http://bit.ly/SubscribeToEdSheeran Follow Ed on... Instagram: http://instagram.com/teddysphotos TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@edsheeran Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/EdSheeranMusic Twitter: http://twitter.com/edsheeran Discord: http://discord.gg/edsheeran Official Website: http://edsheeran.com/ Lyrics: I caught a sickness and they don’t know the name of it I flew to Paris trying to get away I drown my sadness embarrassed by the shame of it But all it seems to do is magnify the pain I wish I was a strong boy, head in the sand If I were them, I would be the man My lips are searching for what happiness is I’m dragging my feet trying to breathe again Yeah I’m trying to feel amazing Yeah but I can’t get out of my way Yeah wish I could feel amazing But this is all that I can feel today I tore the page and I put all of my weight on it So I could stop it trying to blow away The darkest days, well I got all I could take from them Starting to think it’ll never change I see my life is planned in front of me I don’t need to do a thing just because I can My friends are talking like what’s happened to him? I'm dragging my feet trying to breathe again Yeah I’m trying to feel amazing Yeah but I can’t get out of my way Yeah wish I could feel amazing But this is all that I can feel today I’m trying to think at the same time trying to say something Can’t switch off my brain so don’t meditate Every time I crack a smile I can sense another tear coming That’s kinda weird but what can I say I know I’m on the edge and one push of the wind Will send me flying deep into the unknown I guess this is the time to let em all in Coz nothing is worse than when you hit the low Yeah I’m trying to feel amazing Yeah but I can’t get out of my way Yeah wish I could feel amazing But this is all that I can feel today Yeah this is all that I can feel today